A night to remember .

23 Friday . Went to pavilion with irsyad and watched Kick-Ass :) . I know it’s all supposed to be tongue in cheek and lots of fun , but frankly this turned my stomach . Things start slowly while introducing the characters , but once the explosive action and over the top gore-filled violence begin , this movie becomes an unstoppable dynamo :) . Overall , not so bad about kiss-ass and I'm done with yesterday story . Now , move to 24 Saturday story . Went to pavilion again with irsyad . I really had great time with you . We reached at pavilion around 2 and then we straight went to old town and had our lunch . After we done with our lunch , we watched The Losers , yeahh :D . Well , I laughed a good dozen times during the course of the film but it doesn’t put much meat on The Loser’s bones . The editing is sharp , the set pieces are lively , and you won’t check your watch much during the running time *actually , I did :D * . Overall , 85/100 . That's fine with me . But before we enter the cinema we went to Times . Half an hours we spend our time together , Just two of us :) . After that , we went Baskin Robbin . thanks for the ice cream honey <3 . It's 6.30 and I decided to go back home after we done with our ice cream . but suddenly we never make it . We went to MCD jamek and had our dinner . B , I still tak puas jumpa you :( . Rindu you sayang . It's look like I just want to be with you all the times and believe me I need you more and more . We both have our times when we must live by fate . I don't want you to go , I would rather you stay here . . . with me .

Sometimes I'm tired of everythng here . . .

If you don't like me remember it's mind over matter . I don't mind and you don't matter . Get it biatch ? Mind your own business . You think that you are " my bestfriends " ? but the moment your back is turned . Well , no one to be hurt in this way . Even me and you . I already have a bad feelings about you , and I do listen to my instincts ! I once thought you could be trusted , but at me your lies you thrusted . Behind your words was something SINISTER . You think you live in blasphemy ? Look at what you have done to me ! You threw your bullshit in my face , but now I see your failed grace . By karma and the golden rule . Dont worry honey , I will pay you back by price of two . You deny your nature , hiding yourself but I can see through you and your filth . Be gone with you . You are as good as dead . Let failure be recognized in your self-centered head . Okay , I'm done with you . So byebye . Anyway , Nothing special today .

I'm going to pavilion this Friday with irsyad :) & cant wait *coughing*

My One & Only .

I’m skipping ahead a little since my last post but it seemed more necessary to get to the point . Well , today is twenty and Happy Anniversary sayang :) . You became my perfect partner in my life and you have been a "world-class treat" to me :P . I love you with a love I can’t control . It's look like , my passion for you cannot be denied . So many things bring happiness now and my feelings for you are stronger today . I’m so blessed and thankful that you are mine . Nothing has changed to us . I love the way you are , from the way you speak , walk , kiss , smile , cuddle , touch and sleep :) . I will never stop loving you sayang . NEVER ! You are so amazingly sweet for me , awwwwwwww :') . I know you are still mine and im glad you are . Im so lucky to have a guy like you b . Like seriously . Thanks for loving me until now . I will never get over the feeling that I have so strongly for you . I just keep thinking about how if I would ever lose you how I would spend the rest of my life trying to get you back and thinking about how my life will never be complete with out you in it . I just keep thinking of the mistakes that I have made in our relationship and how I would go back to take them all away . I know that we will have our little fights and arguments . Every argument that we have kills me inside but all that I can think of is . In the end will we remain together ? And I know that you will be there for me when I need you the most .

I hope that our love will forever endure

Yesterday story , 17April2010 . Irsyad came to my house yesterday around 10 to 11 . & at the same time he's met my parents :) . Frankly speaking , They like you b . Our relationship went so well until he came to my house and met my parents :) . Things really changed after that because I felt that I really really love you and really really need you in my life now . Okay , Stop with your " really really " munie . It's annoying honey . Well , for short I really had a great time with him yesterday . You know what b , I hope one day you see how much you really mean to me . The way you laugh , the way you smile . Everything you do makes life worth while . & I can't get you off my mind ! Thank you for spend your day with me . You are there for me , through good and bad times . I hope you noticed , the way I felt . I'm so glad b , you came into my life . You have never really broken my heart . Just put pain in it . I have learned so much of who you are
And thirst to learn even more.

I will end this blog with an I love you .

you are the world to me.

Random things ,

Sometimes I feel like if I open my mouth I will start speaking nonsense .

Just another boring day -.- , Saturday 10 April 2010 . I woke up this morning and received message from Irsyad . Supposed go out to setiawangsa with ieka & vela . Kinda miss them . We had absolutely NO IDEA what we were going to do but it had been months since we had been able to hang out so having plans to make plans was a pretty good place to start ! And now I just received message from boi , but I'm running out credit . I'm sorry dude . My computer crashed ! I dont have the incredible skills it takes to bring my computer back from the dead -.- . There is nothing much to look at & say , And there is absolutely nothing that I think I want to do today and I think I'm going to bed now . Currently mood : boring .

You emotionally mindfucked me .

It's like once you have been hurt , you are so scared to get attached again . Like you have this fear that every person you start to like is going to break your heart . I want to keep this relationship like for-ever by loving you

I'm not happy today . In this situation , no one actually wins or benefits . Step back girls , and look at the situation from a different point of view . You are not submitting , but altering the outcome by letting others see that you are committed . If you have made a mistake , admit it , and apologize sincerely . Stop Show off ! It's pretty annoying . I think I'm getting sick with your fucking attitude . Anyways , I just started my diet a few weeks ago :) but I'm starting to get physically sick now -.- . Well , I just came back from mcd bukit bintang with irsyad <3 :) . I likeeeyyyy hehe , I know that my arms will be empty without you today . and now I cant stop smiling :) , you know what sayang I really had fun with you . I be thankful because we had so many good times together . & I'm thank you to you for the love that you have shown . I wish that it was you beside me right now , not my mom -.-" . I'm out , and iloveyou .

It's a lame question honey .

Every guy is attracted to different things

First of all , I would like to wish Happy Birthday to Hareesa . Well babe , I wish you the best for everything , your happiness , health and successful in everything and everywhere you will encounter . May your birthday be bright and nicer than ever before :) . What a wonderfyl day , cause I just finished my diagnostik exam :) . Like yeahhh people I'm free now . Eventho tmrw I got one more last paper , but I dont care much , coz tmrw just account paper one :D . hehehe . Wish me to get nice result guys . I dont hope all A's but whatever result I got , as long as this result I got PASS then okay with me . & I dont want G even E . Pleaseee LAH Please LAH ! ishh . Anyway , I miss him already :( . Call me back SAYANG , likeee pleaseee :) . It’s hard not hearing you speak . You the only one that can keep the fire burning in my soul even my ego . It’s the only thing that I have been waiting for . Even thunder storms could never stop me , hahaha . Well honey , I try not to think about " the bad " but try to think about " the good " . There are many reasons why I'm scared . You know what I mean here . For short , I love you man :) .

I'm getting boring .

I'm getting stress now ,

You know what girl , I could follow you around and do exactly what you do in just your precise manner , but I know I would still fall far from your perfection . I'm not you and it is obvious I can't do anything right for you . So I think I will stand back , watch you do everything perfectly . That's not easy like what you say girl . Replace me , if you can . Sometimes I'm over with this shit . I need time to do something . Like seriously babe , It's not easy . I'm sorry I'm not perfect . But I'm still trying right ? I want to be the best me that I can be . I was perfectly made to be imperfect and your perfection is a hindrance to my imperfection . I have lots of mistakes to make and many regrets coming my way . You wouldn't know about those things so I wont stick around to bore you .

I did ? or what ?

Thnks god everythng just fine . We still going strong eventho we keep fighting . It is never a good thing when fighting begins to control , run a relationship . I really need to find the real problem and discuss with him . But for me , more better if one of us " Stop blaming & Pointing a finger " . Because I think blame is a way to keep the fight alive . This time , I really really understand you sayang . I rather choose to be happy with you than fighting . Change the past , and conquer the future , the present . So nxt time sayang , better you try to stay calm when you argue or disagree with me :) . because I'm alwys trying to understand you . Dont you worry about that . Nobody perfect . Anyway , Happy Birthday to you Vela :) . On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy . I hope all of your wishes come true . May each hour and minute be filled with delight . I think I more excited than you now :) , hahaha . I'm glad that you have special day today . Dearest Friend , you have alwys been there for me . Thnk you so much vela . No matter what , I still sayang you . Thnks a lot babe . Have a great time . much love , XOXO .