MY DAY

First off I didn’t go to school today cause I dont feel like studying eventho next week I'm having my big exam - T R I A L . What a wonderful moment with you books . Give me some hug . It's 10.52am and Today is Saturday 25 September . Bad day for me because when I'm woke up , my throat on fucking fire . Well , that’s a great start . Later , sayang said that he will pick me up after school . Going to sayang house later :) . Currently , I'm texting him :D . oooolalalala . Can I have MCD for my lunch , sayang ? PWEASE :( . Next week Saturday , Open house Maria & Hareesa . but I dont know whether I can make it or not . Mayb I'm going with Dee Ishak . But , I will try girls . and thnk you for inviting me , love :) .

I hope you will understand after you read everything

I wrote to let you know how much you mean to me . I have so many things to share with you . I love you , I truly and really care . My love for you is deeper than any ocean and it is greater than any need in your heart . If you’d only realize how much I love and care . This is how I truly feel . I miss the way things used to be , when we talked every night just getting to know one another. You made me feel whole inside . When I go to sleep, I dream you are right next to me . No matter , how much you upset me . I even love you when you make me go crazy with your ridiculous talk . Yet , I wish I could be with you every day in my life . I love the way you try to make things better for us, when it is the worst end of ties together . I don’t even want to begin to imagine life if you were not by my side . I wonder how we get so close in such a little time . I realized that I would love to spend my whole life with you . I felt that I am the luckiest person in the world now :) .

Burn a Koran Day ?

The Koran is in the hearts and minds of one-and-a-half billion people . Insulting the Koran is an insult to nations . Well , Jones Rethinks Plan For Koran Bonfire again . I have no idea what the pastor's motive is . But I'm sure he's under tremendous pressure right now to call off his planned event . Do you think he'd be angry if the Bible was burned in anger ? This is a tough issue . Trust me .

You dont get it ,do you ?

He’s going to frustrate you . Hell , he’s going to annoy the hell out of you . He’s going to contradict everything you say . He’s going to prove you wrong . He’s going to always want to be right . But he’s going to make you laugh and smile . He’s going to make you second guess things . He’s going to take care of you when you’re sick . He’s going to drive when it’s 3 in the morning to your house when your cat dies and let you cry in his arms and he’s going to just whisper that things will be alright into your hair . He will trace hearts into your back as he lies with you in bed. He will kiss you with such happiness and passion , even when he’s angry. He won’t be perfect. But Fuck , he will mess up every damn day of his life . He will break things , he will break your heart a time or two. He will forget your anniversary and what day you two first fell in love or your dogs birthday , I don’t fucking know . But he will make up for it . He will hold your hair back when you are throwing up , despite how disgusted he is. He will put up with your sarcasm and you will put up with his sexist jokes . He will make fun of the way you laugh yet secretly love it . The most beautiful thing between the two of you will be , I swear on my life and all that is holy , that you complete one another. That’s all .

I have something special for you :)

I just bought a new wallet for sayang . Thnk you , Beverly Hills Polo Club :) . Sayang , I hope you like it :) .

Never assume.

6 September 2010 . Another night to remember with sayang . I really had a great time with sayang eventho I buat perangai . Yeahh , I screwed up everything . but now I'm pretty fine :) . I mean , we are fine . Break fast at chilis with sayang , Fish & chip for me and BBQ Beef ribs & chicken for sayang . Not forget for our dessert , Chocolate brownie sundae . wuuuu :) . Sayang , picked me up at 1.30 and straight away went to KLCC . Really fucked up with KLCC parking . Went to levis , sayang bought a new jean . After that , we straight away to cinema . Bought movie ticket . We watched Grown ups XD . BUT before that I really wanted to watched Step up 3 :( but Sayang said " Grown ups best " . So , I'm fine with it . Well , about the movie absolutely the funniest movies I have seen in a long time , hearty laughing enough . I must admit it was a great movie . I particularly thought Adam Sandler did a great job :) . After done with our movie , sayang went " to see Allah " :) . I forgot to bring my telekung . It's 5.30pm already , went to chilis and we need to Q until 6 . Haihh , I saw Dora with fauzan :DD . hehehe , they look so sweet . After done with our dinner , we went to Topman and as usual sayang still bought a new clothes . I mean , A LOT ! By the way , I really had a blast night with you sayang . Ramadhan has 1 day left . Thats mean . . . SELAMAT HARI RAYA BLOGGER :) . To Malaysian whos going back to your hometown, please be extra careful when driving back and don’t forget to lock your house before leaving .This year I’m not going back to KEDAH :( . Pity me guys . Anyway , this opportunity I would like to seek for apologies and again wishing all of you happy and joyfull Eid ul-Fitr :) . Salam Lebaran from me & Family . I love you blogger . BOI .

Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I want to , forgive myself for the people that I have tried to push away from my life so many times . The people that , although made an effort to be there for me, was dejected by my own selfish and stubborn attitude . I want to say , I'm sorry . To my family , to my friends , to all the people I have ever met in my life , to Allah . You are the ones that have been with me since the beginning and I could honestly say that you give me hope . Your resilience and perseverance in making my day better have given me inspiration to try my best as well . I want to learn from you . Now, I don’t want to push you away , but bring you back in .

What the hell are you looking at ? I'm fucking done with your fucking attitude . I can be Sweet and nice but I have my limit girl ! but THAT WAS ENOUGH ! Whats your problem , woman ! Cant you see that I'm happy with irsyad ? Are you blind ? OR WHAT ! What I am is what I do best! Like if you want , Answer ! This ain't no test . If you like me , So thats " Great ," then we are friends . If you hate me , So don't make me get upset ! If you don't like what you see , then get the Hell out of here ! , So please understand ! Even if you don't "Who really gives a damn?" You act like I’m nothing . You talk about me behind my back . You spread rumors about me . No one would ever suspect it . No one would ever think about it and that's why you don't either .