injured .

What should I do now . I only have a week before the competition and it's no where near better . There is nothing I can do to make it " better " :( . Useless . Missing my cartwheel and a round off now :( . I still wanna be in cheer , MAN ! I dont want to give it up because I love cheer so much . I love cheerleading because I love cheering . My teammates are some of my best friends . In a game or in life , I'm always looking on the bright side of things . Well , You don't just dance around . It's much harder than it looks , if you mess up as a flyer , base , backspotter even frontspotter you have to run laps or do push ups ! Tumbling takes so much hard work and effort . It's changed my life for sure . All that I have learned from cheerleading so far in my life is that if you want to achieve something try hard for it and don't give up not everything is going to come naturally . Any young girl who wants to cheer I say go for it. It is a very fun sport to do and you won't regret it ! Like seriously girls .

Together we work , together we fall . We work as a team - SHIRTLIFF -

Just a quick update to let you know I'm feeling better . There is only 12 more days until cheer comp and hopefully I can lost another 3 kilos that I set my goal . I love my team . If I were to guess right now I would say there is no way I have lost 3 kilos yet considering the cookies -.- . I have been devouring but I still have some time left to make at least a small dent in my small goal . We shall see right :) . It was a last minute plan to actually :DD . hehehe . But nahhhh munie , I know you can do it :) . It doesn't need to be stressful .

cecuaa :)

I have been trying to find time to update all week long but every time . I'd go to log in I'd get distracted by something or another and never quite make it here to post -.- . I totally understood that nobody could change my mind except myself . I know this when I was 15 years old . I know I would be the only one could make me accept the truth . What I have to do is just change my mind . However , this is not easy when come to take action . YA YA YA . . .maybe this also just a excuse for me not to follow the truth . Confusing me , MAN ! I think I have to sit down and think deeply what I really want now . Haihhh . How I wish I had money to buy a DELL laptop . I heard many good comments about the DELL laptop and I wish to have chance to try it , but too bad my budget is not enough to buy a good DELL laptop T_T . Pity me guys .

just writting that puts a smile on my face :)

After cheer practice , went to jusco with irsyad :) . He's fetch me and we straight went to jusco and ahbie with us . Dia memang suka sibuk orang nak dating -.- . Had our lunch at food court :) . Semalam hari yang paling teruk bgi I dengan irsyad . Kitaorang gaduh . I tak penah benci you b , just I tak nak you jadi mcm megat , tu je . I tak kisah korang contact , just bgtau I b . Ada sesetengah perkara yang I patut tahu . I Girlfriend you . And I terharu sangat waktu kita gadu then you dah tak tahu nak pujuk I mcm mana then you dah OTW datang rumah I . thnk god . I call you smlm . I just tak nak susahkan you . B you dari bangi dtg ke cheras okay . jangan main gila . I sayang you ingat tu . Lepas gaduh mesti I rindu you sangat . Yeahhh , macam sekarang ni :) . HEHEHE , come on b kita dah 3 bulan . and dlm masa 3 bulan ni you dapat paham I dlm masa yang sekjp . you tahu apa yang I nak and you tahu apa yang I tak suka . Enough . You dah perfect bagi I .

the countdown is almost over !

Happy Father day (: & Happy Anniversary sayang .

What a big day . Daddy , you always bring me lots of joy and you can do anything . You just like my superhero dad :) . You kept me safe and happy . With so much happiness to spare and I could not feel a pain . Thank you for the laughter for the good times that we share . Thanks for always listening for trying to be fair . All my life through , I will be thanking Heaven for a Special dad like you & Thanks for the sacrifices you made . Not forget to you sayang , Happy 3 Months Anniversary . If ever I were to find three words to show how much I care , There would only be these three words to say . I'm giving you my heart promise you wont break it . It's very hard to fix and it doesn't take to just anyone . Your one of few it has picked so you better guard it carefully and give it lots of love . Make sure my heart is the only heart your ever dreaming of (: sayang . You are perfect for me in every single way . I will spend every day until my last breath . With you , until I’m stripped from life to death . I will be cheering you on as much as I can . Baby , you are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me .

We made it :)

Just came back from wangsa walk with sayang :) . Had a great time with him . Chop , We ate a lot just now . A lot ! Wanted to watch toy story 3 but we never make it :( . Ticket - SOLD OUT . Niceee Oneeee . Today date , 19 june that mean tmrrw Twenty :) . Happy Anniversary sweetheart . I tahu I suka wish you awal , but better I ingat daripada I lupa hari kita . B , I tahu you dah cuba sedaya upaya you untuk jadi yang terbaik tapi you dah tak perlu smua tu b . You dont have to be perfect to be with me . You made my day . . . almost everyday sayang . I just tak nak you rasa penat nanti . I just want you to know that no matter what , I still love you b . I'm happy with you . All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart since we met and for us to be together , to never be apart . We have so much more than I ever thought we would . Out of 93627482036389320362 I people in the world I only choose you b :) .

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Yesterday , Wednesday 16 June 2010

Went to Pavilion KL with sayang :) . Sayang fetch me at home and went to Jusco with Ah bie and alang . Had our lunch together . Sizzling Mee . EEEEEE , sedap . Sukaaa ^.^ . HEHEHEHE . Lepas makan , Ah bie , irsyad and I balik rumah . Pukul 3 amik kak lang kat Jusco and hantar dia balik . Lepas hantar Ah bie and alang . Sayang and I terus pergi VI . Need to fetch Lai , Iqbal and Po ling . Traffic Jam , Fucked it up dude (!) I swear too much . Tak nak jam punya pasal then patah balik , Ikut jalan Ampang and lalu KLCC . by the time , dah pukul 4.30 -__________- . MALAYSIA , Niceeee Oneee . Tu pun belum cari parking lagi . Pusing pusing , kat area KLCC . Fine , Sayang nak parking kat Pavilion . But the thing is , MAHAL lah b ! and the second one , I tak tahu pula kalau belok kiri blh msk parking :DD . Sorry , Janji . Nxt time , parking dlm kayh ? Reached at pavilion around 5 . and strght went to Food Court . I makan Nasi Ayam and sayang makan Chaw Kuey teow . EEEE , sedappp chaw kuey teow dia but nasi ayam dia . . . . eee , tak okay . Ayam dah lah bagi sikit . Still lapar . So beli lagi 1 chaw kuey teow . Hahahah . Seee , dengan irsyad mesti gemuk . blm kira dlm mvie lagi . beli popcorn . Haihhh . I just takut I tak blh naik je b , Gemuk ke tak I dont mind . sebab I tahu you tetap tak akan tinggal kan I (: . Lepas makan , pergi GSC . and kitaorang tgk SHREK :DD . movie at 6.10 and finished at 8.00pm . Tu pun nak balik jam , HANTAR LAI KAT VI . yeahhh , Thnks a lot dude . By the way , I really had a great time with my loved one :) . Thnks for the day b . I really appreciated everything .

I cant keep pretending

I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me I’m beautiful. I love how you look at me funny when I say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when I see you. I love how you laugh when I say something random, or stupid. I love the face you make when I snort when I laugh. I love how you ask me if I’m alright when I cant stop laughing. I love how you make me feel. I love how you tell me I look cute. I love how you like my pajamas. I love how you talk about music for hours. I love how you say sweet things to me. I love how you whisper in my ear when it’s really quiet. I love how you squeeze me so hard when I hug you. I love how I can talk to you for hours about anything, and you listen, and I listen. I love how we call each other as soon as we wake up. I love how you sound when I wake you up. I love how my dog has more sex with you than I do, just kidding. I love how you want to spend every day with me. I love how you squeeze my hand. I love how you rub my back, and kiss my neck. I love how you lay next to me, and tell me that everything’s perfect. I love how everything is perfect. I love how you see the person I really am. I love how you say we are perfect for each other. I love how you make me cry, but not because I’m upset or sad, or you hurt me, but because you made me the happiest person ever. I love how I wake up in the morning for you. I love how I anticipate seeing you. I love how you kiss me. I love how I look at the empty space in my bed, and wish you were filling it. I love how I get nervous when I see you, but feel more comfortable with you than I do with anyone else. I love how my parents love you. I love how you deal with my picky eating habits. I love how you worry about me, and take care of me. I love how you pay for me when we go places. I love how you insist everything will be alright, and make me feel at ease. I love how you keep me warm when I’m cold. I love how you give me weird looks at awkward moments. I love how you stop everything for me. I love how I’m important to you. I love how I make you happy. I love how you make me happy. I love how you make sure I stay in line. I love how I only want to be with you. I love how I only think about you. I love how I stop everything because I get distracted and have to call you. I love how you get jealous. I love how you are when you are with your family. I love being with your family. I love how I can see myself with you forever. I love how we talk about being together forever. I love how you think I have cute feet. I love how you tickle me. I love how you get mad when someone says something to upset me. I love everything about you.

Stop bitching

I’m a slut because i’ll wear shorts and a tank top. I’m a bitch because i don’t let you push me around. I’m a liar because i won’t tell you everything. I’m stupid because sometimes i’m wrong. I’m ugly because my face isn’t perfect. I’m a whore because i like boys. I’m annoying because i’m not chill enough. I’m a loser because i’m not friends with your group. I’m fake because most of the time i’m happy. I’m weird because i’m not like you. I’m controlling because i get mad. Sometimes i’m clingy because i like being around people. I’m greedy because i like to be satisfied. I’m naive because i’m younger than you. I’m conceited because i’m proud of who i am. I’m rude because my manners aren’t perfect. i’m unappreciative because i don’t praise you. Don’t tell me who i am because i already know.

I opened my heart and let you in .

This is not so much an idea , but something that I did for my love . I never believed in love at first sight until I met Irsyad . It wasn't quite love at first sight, but following our first date, there were feelings inside me that went far beyond expression . I didn't want to say something that I may regret later, or more likely , something that would scare him away . You are everything I could ever ask for . I wonder why you find me so useful ? You have changed my life from a blink of the eye . Thank you for the laughs and every smile sayang . My days are a dream that has come true . Every day is beautiful all thanks to you . Now I have found what I have been looking for . It's you heart and soul and nothing more b . You have showed me the world in such short time :) . I will end this line with something you should already know that I love you so much more than these words show . You are special because you are different. Stay being who you are b . You are my favorite person in the world . You are the only person who never gets tired of listening to my own pointless dramas . Sorry if at times I'm stubborn , impatient , moody , a cry baby child , negative , pointless , too controlling you and jealous but despite all that I really love you .

Ouuuchhhh