loved

You are so good to me . You bless me with so many things in my life and I could have never thought it was you . You were there for me when I could never tell anybody anything and you still are . You are my saviour now . You show me that I could still have faith and that I should always believe in you knowing that you will repay every single person who does good in your name . You give me strength , strength knowing that I can live every single day with a smile on my face and a good deed for every person that I come across . You gave me a loving relationship that best mates in the world and the best friends in the whole world . He is the one that I give trust for anything , the one that I pray to every single day , the one that I could trust with a promise made and the one that I could tell all the things on my mind . He is the one that I love until now . Thank you so much for everything . I love you .

I don’t even know where to begin . It seems like no amount of words can describe exactly how I feel about you . Trust me , there’s a reason I put this off for so long. But here goes nothing . School was okay and about my trial . . . everything just fine . Alhamdulilah . But truth to be told , I'm so dead for Account . and MATH too . Oh , FUCK ! Account , can you be nice to me ? like please darlin . BTW , I know I may have made mistakes BUT you should know that life didn't came with instructions :P . Bet me , she's a life-ruiner . She ruins people lives . I got 99 problems from her & they all bitches . I don't want to care . If I care about things , it'll just be worse , it will just be another thing to worry about . It's less painful if I don't care . Thats what my mom & my dad told me . Back to my love story , I'm still with IrsyadSyn like CURRENTLY WITH HIM . okay fullstop . Well , we have been for 6 months 3 weeks and 2 days . Okay lah , Almost seven . HEHEHE . What a nice number , haa . This will sound silly and dumb . I know :P and I'm out .

Mistakes

If I could, I would do so many things differently and I wouldn’t take back anything ,NO . Like , I would let you go anywhere , do anything you want . I would hold my tongue for every snide remark . I would let you sleep a little earlier , eat a little more , talk a little less . I wouldn’t have been so gosh darn selfish . You don’t know what you have until it’s gone , sayang . If I could , I would treat you like the person you deserved to be treated & I wouldn’t be as narrow minded , thinking you should be the person I thought you should be in my mind . I got consumed in what I wanted . I’m sorry . I know you loved me for a whole different person and in a way , I hate what I become :'( . Besides that , There was so many things planned that we didn’t get to do . There are certain days of the month that are more special than any others . I wanted to surprise you and make you happy . I know it may not seem like it , but I really did try . I’m sorry that I’m simply someone that will sit in a corner and collect dust . But you did mean a lot to me , B . Remember that .

Already October . Another 1 months

There isn’t anything I want more in life then to make my mother proud . I want to show her that all her sacrifice and hard work hasn’t been in vain . I want to give her the best present on this planet . I want to be able to invite her to my school graduation . My mother has giving me everything I have ever needed and in return all I want is to make her proud . I know that she works extremely hard to try and save up for me to go to school but I know that it isn’t enough . I know I need a little extra help to give my mother the most significant present in this world . I want to go to college so I can prove everyone wrong that has ever doubted me . I have had to deal with so many changes in my life that have made me into the person I am today . Every single obstacle that has been placed in front of me I have over come . I have made many mistakes in my life that if I had the chance to go back in time to prevent them from happening I still wouldn’t . I wouldn’t because every mistake I made , I have learned from . Every mistake has helped me realize the repercussions of my actions . There came a point in my life where I just wanted to give up . I don’t want to be another statistic out there . I want to be the example of how hard work can make anything possible . I want to be someone in life. I don’t want to end up like so many people out there that just wish they would have done something with their lifes. I want to go to college so that later on when I have a family I will be able to support them . I want to make a name for myself. I don’t want my future children to have to live the way I have . If you do decide to give me a shot at making my dreams come true I can tell you one thing . I will not let you down , mom . I will try my best .